charloft 100 drabbles - 87. Two of Swords

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It had gone on long enough. K’tanya had known this for a while, but she had turned a blind eye to that fact, not wanting to admit it was over. However she had spent quite a bit of time thinking about it while trying to relax in her tropical paradise.

She still loved him, in her own way. However as much as it hurt she needed to face the fact that he just didn’t feel the same, and nothing she did was going to change that simple truth.

It was time to talk Aidan, and then finally let him go.

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[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Hey, K'tanya. What are you doing here? I haven't seen you since you brought Wes back. Are you okay?" He asks as he lets her in.

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She glances around the room, then looks at him. "Are we alone? Can...we talk for a few minutes?"

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Yeah. Wes is at work and everyone else moved out." He says as he closes the door behind her. "What do you want to talk about?"

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She takes a deep breath, then sighs softly. "Do you have anything to drink first?"

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Oh sure." He says with a nod, "Let's go to the kitchen and look."

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She nods, follows him into the kitchen, and wonders why he has to be so fricking adorable.

"Whatever you have is fine. I'm not feeling particularly picky at the moment."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"You act like we didn't live together or that you aren't my friend. I have a lot of beverages here, princess. You have to help me out." He says with a laugh as he opens the fridge door for her.

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She smiles a bit. "Something alcoholic, preferably with rum if you have some."

She's taken a liking to it since they've been in the tropics.

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Feeling tropical, huh?" He asks as he makes her something alcoholic with rum in it. He even puts a special little umbrella in it because that's just what he does.

"I heard you were traveling around the world, but staying tropical. How are you doing? I mean, I obviously saw your change but did it help you at all?"

He hands her the drink. "Do you want to talk in here or in the living room?"

B comes into the room and is very excited to see her.

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She smiles a bit at the umbrella as she takes the drink from him, then the smile widens as B comes in and she puts the drink down long enough to cup the dogs face in her hands and play with her a moment. "Are you getting sulfur breath yet, huh?" She then ruffles B's ears before picking her drink up again. "You really should talk to him more, you know? Silly girl."

Then she looks at Aidan as though that conversation never took place. "The living room is fine."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Is that what that is? I've been blaming Wes..." He says as he looks at her funny because B has never talked to him.

He moves from the kitchen to the living room and has a seat, "Ready to listen to her."

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"She talks to him? That's...interesting..." K'tanya gives B a look before sitting down across from Aidan, even though there was free room on the couch next to him.

"The change is superficial, you know? I mean...the new look and all. It's just...a look. Like changing dresses between clubs or something. Truth is, I'm not sure anything will help me, but that's neither here nor there. I'm here to tell you...that I'm sorry."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Wait. You're taking him back, aren't you?" He says with a sigh because he knew this was too good to be true. "Wes is going to die again and that's it, isn't it?"

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She slowly shakes her head. "I told you it was a birthday gift, and I'm not about to take back the only thing you ever wanted from me, no matter how I feel about him."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Oh. But, why are you sorry?"

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"For hurting you."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Wow. That...I don't think I've ever heard you say that. That's very brave of you to do."

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"Maybe it would be, if it wasn't you."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"What do you mean?"

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"You're one of the sweetest guys I know, Aidan. Talking to you doesn't take a whole lot of courage."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Yeah, but apologizing does. I get that." He says with a grin. "It means a lot, actually."

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She smiles a bit. "Well, I'm glad it means something. I just didn't want there to be bad feelings between us now."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"There really wasn't. I don't know why. I should be pissed at you, but for some reason I can't be."

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"I get that a lot, but I still needed to make sure. You've been important to me for a long time now, and I didn't want to leave until you knew."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Leave? Where are you going?"

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"Just...away. Somewhere. Anywhere but here, really."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"You mean on earth?"

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She shakes her head a bit. "I mean New York, or, well...anywhere near you, really."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Why?"

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"Because if I stay I'll just end up hurting you again. I won't be able to help myself. You just...have this effect on me and I...need to let you go and I won't be able to do that if I'm anywhere near you. I don't even know if I can do it when I'm not but...at least I can try."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Why do I have that effect on you? I mean, out of everyone in the world, why do you love me?"

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She sighs softly. "I wish I knew, but I don't really. You're just...the perfect guy, I guess. I mean, you're sweet, and adorable, and charming, and hot, and you have this boyish quality and you love so much and...even with all your faults I just...can't help myself."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"All my faults, huh? Well, you're not the only one that loves me. Sometimes I wonder if you put a spell on me that makes that happen, but you would never do that would you?"

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"Yes, all your faults."

Wes, for instance. Huge fault. HUGE.

She shakes her head. "No. There's no need for such a spell on you. You attract people just by being you, whether you want them...or not."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Now, don't be trying to guilt me. I wanted you but you left me."

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She gives him that look. You know, the 'yeah, right' look.

"You didn't want me. You wanted bliss, and I'm not talking about the demi-god either. You were broken hearted. Bliss was new, and different, and made you forget."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"And he was awesome and even if YOU were to have told me that you were actually you, then I would have accepted you so don't start that. You don't know anything about me or how I felt about you. But, I was heartbroken when you left. All you did was dump a puppy on my lap and leave. Then, Wes came into my life and I'm happy. You should be happy for me too and move on with your life."

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"And it was a mistake, okay? I know that now. I...left because I was afraid and...I left B because I wanted you to have something to remember me by and..."

She sighs and shakes her head. "It doesn't matter. You're right. I do want you to be happy, whatever the cost. As I said, I just wanted to tell you I was sorry."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

"Well, I appreciate it and I'll miss you, for what it's worth."

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

She just nods, sets her drink on the table, and gets to her feet. "I should go. Thank you for seeing me, Aidan."

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

He stands up, "Good luck, K'tanya."

[idealized-sue.livejournal.com]

"Goodbye, Aidan."

She gives him one last look before walking to the entryway, and then out the door.

[aoutlaw321.livejournal.com]

He watches her go before he sighs softly at her departure.